well... i haven't actually been here for a while, a little more than that i suppose...

i may look at comments and deviations. i may not. either way it doesn't really matter.

...

hm, what else do i have to say... i really don't know what to think of believe anymore, what to do. what to even live for. it sucks.
any suggestions are fine. in fact they may help? right. whatever.

i don't really see why i'm doing this, writing this, looking for reasons that aren't there. possibly cuz i don't have much more to lose. no thats not entirely true. i'm just being a depressed egotistical cynical self absorbed little bitch. don't listen. not that you do. it'll just get you to be more like me. that's the last thing i want.

i'm sick of trying to fix the unsolvable. tired of watching good people be in pain.

i just want it gone.

all of it.

now.